Over the past few months, my family has been going through a lot of changes. We are not a family who likes change, and literally everything is evolving. I could call it ending too- my family, as I've known it for the past 21 years, is ending. But new things are beginning out of it. Its been a hard ride, and someday I will probably look back at this as one of the hardest years of my life. But even in the midst of all of my hurt and confusion, God is growing me into someone I hardly recognize. And its someone more like Him.
Daily I find myself pondering new revelations. The most recent one is this.. everyone is living a different life, therefore nobody will EVER know what its like to be in my shoes. At first, this was a super frightening and lonely idea. And then it dawned on me- Jesus does. He promises that I belong to Him. He lives within my heart, and experiences everything I do. He knows every hurt, every joy, and every thought because He is with me always. I am not constant, but God always is. He never lets me down, or lets me go. The more we go through this journey of life together, the more I become like Him.
I don't think that God expects me to actually find joy in every hardship, but I think He offers hope in the mist of them. Because even when things are super difficult, and my human eyes are blind to the meaning of events, God can see them. He isn't a mean God, and doesn't create suffering. But He does use suffering to grow me, and to mold me into the woman He created me to be. The painful events of today are shaping my future. They are molding my ideas on marriage, ministry, parenting, and friendship. There is a song that puts my feelings into words and it says...
After all this has passed, I still will remain
After I've cried my last, there'll be beauty from pain
Though it won't be today, someday I'll hope again
And there'll be beauty from pain
You will bring beauty from my pain
Thanks Jesus, for such a wonderful promise :) Thanks for working hard for me, for making my life all it can be. Thanks for letting me cling to you, and for blanketing me in Your love.
Daily I find myself pondering new revelations. The most recent one is this.. everyone is living a different life, therefore nobody will EVER know what its like to be in my shoes. At first, this was a super frightening and lonely idea. And then it dawned on me- Jesus does. He promises that I belong to Him. He lives within my heart, and experiences everything I do. He knows every hurt, every joy, and every thought because He is with me always. I am not constant, but God always is. He never lets me down, or lets me go. The more we go through this journey of life together, the more I become like Him.
I don't think that God expects me to actually find joy in every hardship, but I think He offers hope in the mist of them. Because even when things are super difficult, and my human eyes are blind to the meaning of events, God can see them. He isn't a mean God, and doesn't create suffering. But He does use suffering to grow me, and to mold me into the woman He created me to be. The painful events of today are shaping my future. They are molding my ideas on marriage, ministry, parenting, and friendship. There is a song that puts my feelings into words and it says...
After all this has passed, I still will remain
After I've cried my last, there'll be beauty from pain
Though it won't be today, someday I'll hope again
And there'll be beauty from pain
You will bring beauty from my pain
Thanks Jesus, for such a wonderful promise :) Thanks for working hard for me, for making my life all it can be. Thanks for letting me cling to you, and for blanketing me in Your love.
