Friday, May 27, 2011

Almost Ready...

Hey guys! Okay so I am leaving for Uganda in just 4 days!!!! I cannot believe that this day has come so soon! I have been waiting for this trip literally since I stepped foot on the plane back to SF last year. This time is going to be so different, and God is both challenging me and growing me already. First off, I will be going for much longer. Last summer I served with API for just two weeks- enough time to fall in love with Uganda and its people, but not enough time to get settled. This summer, three whole months will definitely give me plenty of time to see what Gods plans for me concerning Uganda are. Also different will be the fact that I am not going with a team. I will be leading teams while I am there, but I am going to be really on my own for the first time in my life. My solid Christian community that has both blessed and sheltered me will be gone; I am going to be relying totally on Jesus to provide for me. And then there is the fact that Uganda is a totally foreign country, and everyday there I will be pushed out of my comfort zone. The big question people keep asking is am I ready. Well... yes and no. I will never be totally ready to leave everything I know and move across the world (how can I be ready if I have no expectations?). But at the same time I am. Recently, the main theme in my walk with Jesus is that He is totally faithful, and therefore I can totally trust Him. I keep reading Luke 5:4 "put out into deep water, and let down the nets for a catch". Jesus was asking the disciples to do something crazy for Him- He asked them to take a big risk. But their payoff was more fish than they ever could have imagined! Its not me that faithfully walks with Jesus, but Jesus that faithfully stands by me as I try my best to follow Him. I am His daughter and He loves me; He has prepared my way. True, I do not know what to expect. True, its kinda terrifying at times :) And true, its a BIG adventure. But Jesus will be with me every step of the way. So this is me letting down my nets in the deep water, and I cannot wait to see what I catch!!